Sunday, 3 November 2013
I have been so caught up in life lately I have forgotten to take time to do the little things I truly love to do like sit down and write. Pour my heart and soul out onto paper and express my inner feelings the best way I know how, with words. Thank god I have an angel on earth with me that helps me to focus my energy and reminds me of who I am and what I love with the gentlest of nudges (or really long Facebook messages :)) so here I am, feeling raw, stripped bare, grateful, happy and emotional all at the same time... (wack combo I know but its true).
My divine little heaven sent earth angel wrote me THE most meaningful message after having a somewhat confused and teary conversation in Cottesloe yesterday. She reminded me that I don't have to hide behind any masks any more, that I don't need to believe the lies I speak to myself, that I am beyond worthy. divine. Strong. Amazing. Incredible. Sexy. KIND. Generous. Gifted. Humble. Funny. EXTRAORDINARY and to never ever stop connecting back to the spirit inside of me.
To be honest.... I have never needed and I mean PHYSICALLY NEEDED to read those words from someone I know, love and trust more than today. I read this at least 100 times before I could actually find any words to write back and when I did find the words to write back, I also found that belief inside me that what she had said was true. That no amount of insecurities, issues, arguments with my lover, tears and hateful self-talk that had crept back into my head, would change that I am all of those things to myself and to my friends and loved ones who surround me.
Tonight I have decided that before I can be any one else's hero, I need to become my OWN hero.
And that now more than ever THIS is MY time to shine bright.
That the only person who is standing in between me and my goals is ME.
And most of all that NO MATTER WHAT, I AM GOING TO BE OKAY.
So I want to leave you with one of my favourite pieces of writing - Thank you for sending it to me Earth Angel (It was in that facebook message too!) A deeply personal letter between my 90 year old self and my 16 year old self.
Dear 16 year old Leanne
Don't allow what others think of you to bother you. Don't keep trying to fit in because you aren't meant to. You give so much and at the moment you are giving it all to the wrong kinds of people who don't appreciate you or what you do for them. That bunch of "friends"? They won't be around for long so don't keep giving the best of you to people who are fake and two faced. Don't worry about the judgemental comments or names you might get called to your face or behind your back, in the end the ones saying those things are just jealous of the confidence and bubbly personality and generous, kind heart you have. Stay away from drugs... They might be fun at the time but I promise you they won't be worth it in the long run. And as for all the boys your chasing and pouring unrequited love into.... They aren't the ones for you. You do find love deeper than you could even imagine with a man who gives his whole heart and life to you as you are and helps mould you into a better person. You are an incredible mother to the most amazing children and you are beautiful. The kind of beauty that is so much more than skin deep. I know you have experienced deep hurt and your kindness has been taken for a weakness but keep living and giving because eventually you are going to stumble across a group of friends who respect you and are thankful that you are willing to go above and beyond and will not use you. Also don't worry that you have 1 million dreams and careers up your sleeve, eventually you will be able to pursue the things you want not the things you think you have to. The life you have in front of you is full of love, joy and success and the legacy you will leave at 90 is beyond words. The role model you were for your kids and grand kids is still talked about, and the lifestyle changes you will make in your mid 20's are the reason that at 90, you have a family of 4 generations around you. Be happy, be free, be yourself because who you are is unique and perfect.
Love 90 year old Leanne
Tuesday, 23 July 2013
Last night I attended a personal development event run by an amazing young and super inspiring entrepreneur by the name of Calvin Coyle’s, who at the age of 23, has managed to touch the lives of over 20,000 people in 40 different countries across the world. He is the CEO and founder at Bright Lights, a trainer and business development coach, and this just begins to scratch the surface of the accolades and achievements Calvin has seen already.
The first thing we were asked to remember was to start with the end in mind. What did we want to learn? Achieve? Leave the event with? I think this is one of the most powerful statements in relation to life in general. So often we focus on all the hardships and speed bumps we are going to face along our path, that we lose sight of the end and how badly we want to get there. To always start with the end in mind to me means having that goal, visualizing it, painting a picture of what the end product looks like, getting that connection to the reason why we want it sooooo deep and soooo strong that NOTHING will get in the way, not a mountain, not a river, not a fucking dinosaur could put you off course from reaching that success.
So we set our goals, got our focus and jumped in to an amazingly deep, (somewhat unexpected) emotional 3 hours of releasing, resetting and re-planning our journey to success. If you haven’t attended or had the pleasure of meeting Calvin, Find him on Facebook or Twitter or at calvincoyles.com
I just wanted to share with you my experiences from last night and the impression in my brain I have gotten to take away with me and start implementing into my life and business.
“You either have reasons or results” – Calvin Coyles
The synchrony going on in my life at the moment is spine tingling, hairs on end, goose bump raising shit! YESTERDAY I blogged about Lessons Learnt and choosing what we want, on Monday my mentor ran us through a call based around re-setting your GPS and lining your course of action up with where your aiming to go and BOOM! Last night Calvin asked me, “What’s your excuse?” its really that simple, we either make excuses or take action and based on the frame of mind we are in and the messages we are personally vibrating out into the universe. Another amazing quote “Perception is Projection”. We don’t see the world as it is we see the world as we are. Our brains are fed 2 BILLION pieces of information every second in every minute in every hour in every day and we cant store it all so we, distort, delete and generalize based around our beliefs, our upbringings our values. So to me this is saying make sure your looking for relevant information, from the right people in the right places.
“Don’t let perfect get in the way of better” – Calvin Coyles
Strive for progress not perfection. Understand where you’re starting and go from there. JUST GO FOR IT. What do you have to lose? Find that thing that makes your heart sing (loudly) and just do it. Chances are that is the very reason you were put on this earth and why spend your life living and doing things that you don’t love? It’s not difficult, it’s just different. Our brains have not been programmed to think this way. Our education system did not bring us up to think this way, nor our families or society but that doesn’t mean that you cant. It just means you have to extend yourself outside your comfort zone and have faith in yourself. AND a huge gem from Calvin was “Anyone who cuts you down, you don’t need in your fab 5”. So think about that. Are you surrounded by people who build you up, support your dreams, and empower you? If not find people that will.
“The first step before anyone else in the world believes it, is that you have to believe it” – Will Smith via Calvin Coyles
We went through a release session were we were asked to think about the major negative emotion we indulge in. Then from there we were asked to make an affirmation that we were absolutely committed to releasing this negative emotion, and what we wanted to replace that negative emotion with.
For me I felt my most major negative emotion was self doubt, worrying about what other people think of me and convincing myself that I am not good enough or deserving enough or not possibly able to achieve.
I committed to releasing this emotion because I wanted to have trust in myself, I wanted to love myself, I wanted to not care about what other people think about me and I wanted to have unwavering belief in myself and my goals.
I chose to replace those negative emotions with self-belief and confidence, security and love.
I felt emotional at this stage and I was already fighting back tears, I was pre-empting where I would be taken back to and what the demon was that I thought I was fighting with for so many years and my whole body was shaking like a leaf on a windy day. I had committed to releasing this but somewhere inside me I was scared. I had battled with these diminishing thoughts for such a long time that I was scared and excited all at once of how it would feel to let it go and be free.
Then, the lights were dimmed and we all stood up and closed our eyes. My heart was literally leaping out of my chest. Calvin talked us through the process of subconscious reprogramming. His voice was calm and safe and I felt as though I had slipped into a state of hypnosis, it was almost an out of body experience, I had tears streaming down my face, my body felt like lead just glued to the floor but shaking uncontrollably. I hit my first memory of the time I had felt self-doubt, but it wasn’t where I had pre-empted the emotion to stem from. It was a lot earlier and in a different context of what I had expected to find. It was challenging and painful to deal with because I had rewound back to a memory of my dad, who I love dearly and done an amazing job raising my brothers and I (especially with my horrendous teenage years of hell I put him through but that’s another story) but I was subconsciously holding that for all those years, and I needed to emotionally obliterate that to be able to move forward and delete this negative emotion for once and for all. When it was time to wind back to now and shout out the word that we wanted to embrace, for me it wasn’t one of the words I had previously written on my page. FORGIVENESS! I said, wow! That was a bit of a shock, forgiveness? I have now had a lot of time to process this release session and I know that the forgiveness is not just going one way. I do forgive my dad for that imprint neither he nor I knew was in my brain, but I wanted forgiveness from him too. And that is something I will be working towards as a major goal over the next year.
I instantly felt lighter, more peaceful and I knew that I had let it go. As I sit here writing this, I have an unbelievable sense of calm and direction and my faith in my goals are higher than sky high. It was one of the most incredible experiences I have had in my life to date, other than getting married, and becoming a mother to my 2 beautiful children, but its up there with those types of experiences, you know the ones that change you and change your life.
There was a whole heap of excellent strategies and tips to follow this reprogramming session but I’m not going to give it all away :) However, I urge each and everyone to go to one of Calvin’s events, for me and the girls I went with, it was seriously life and game changing stuff.
I just wanted to leave you with this final quote by John C Maxwell.
Love and light in so much abundance Lee xxx
Monday, 22 July 2013
This is my WHOLE last weeks worth of gratitudes!!
Baggy jumpers and trackie pants
Being able to work from home on an amazing business
My Iphone and Apple Mac
Having beautiful healthy children
For an amazing family
The Isagenix Delivery man <3
My Gorgeous Children Rhyder and Kyah
The friendships I have formed through Isagenix
An amazingly huge turn out at Wellness Wednesday
Warm snuggly jumpers and slippers
Blue Skies on winters days
Doing my food shopping for a week for $106!
Painting with my kids
The health of my family
An amazing, caring, loving and supportive husband
Having money in my IsaWallet J
Im so grateful for my car
I am so grateful for having this amazing opportunity
I am grateful for Peta investing her time and wisdom into me
I am grateful for being able to get through crazy busy days with happiness, energy and ease
I am grateful for the relationship I have with my mum
I am so so grateful for my hard working husband
I am so so grateful for my happy, healthy and beautiful children
I am grateful for these products which are changing my health and my body
I am grateful for the girls in my downline who are starting to really understand the vision of the company and want to get running with the business
I am so grateful for EShots J
Having an amazing conversation with my mum
Having an amazing conversation with Jas
Having an amazing conversation with Becky
Having an amazing conversation with Laura
Buying my ticket to Calvins event for Tuesday night
Having a few girls in my downline really showing interest in building and sharing the Isagenix vision
Getting through a hectic day with ease and happiness
My son coming home from his friends bowling birthday party super happy cause he won J
My gorgeous husband who gets up on Saturday to go to work but still tucks us in nice and snuggly
My 2 amazing, healthy and happy children
Getting to take my kids to the park
Rhyders passion and dedication to his footy and how far he has come as a player in his first year
My beautiful mum and getting to spend time with her and my kids
My brothers and the childlike fun we have when we are all together
My brothers girlfriend Danae and the amazing relationship her and I have and just how comfortable she is in her own skin and with our family
Sitting down to breakfast as a family
Being able to Bench Press my Son and daughter (haha)
Building relationships with the other parents in my sons footy team
Having support in my life to get the time to sit down and grow myself and my Isagenix business
Working with Neil Berry towards hosting and co-running our own calls on a Tuesday Night
The support I receive from my upline and my team members to help me push through and reach my goals
I have had so much on this past few weeks I have really neglected finding time for me. Finding time to sit down and pour love into myself. I haven’t been writing as mush as I like to, I haven’t been reading my angel cards as much as I need to and absolutely love to, I haven’t been keeping track of all the things in my life that every day I am GENUINELY grateful and blessed to have in my life.
But what I have learnt over this crazy busy week is that I am so certain that where I am at on this Journey to Health and Wealth like we all are striving to get to is the exact place the Universe intended me to be at this point in my life. We all know that life has its ups and downs and sometimes things happen to us and we get lost for a while wondering, “why me?” “What did I do to deserve this?” You know what? Feeling sorry for yourself gets you absolutely fucking nowhere. WE radiate what we attract. Whatever we are putting out there is exactly what we are asking for even if it is subconsciously.
And over this past week or so, this has finally clicked for me! WE are ALL busy, but that does not mean we don’t have TIME! WE all have the power to CHOOSE! I have been affirming that to myself EVERY day for the last week in front of the mirror, and you know what? I BELIEVE IT NOW. I AM SO CONVINCED OF IT NOW. And it feels AMAZING! I have the power to choose exactly what I want in my life. And why shouldn’t I be able to choose what I want? It’s my life to live!! If I choose happiness then guess what I get? Happiness! If I choose to attract people who have similar goals and interests BOOM that’s what I am getting.
I have already started to feel the shift between the messages I am giving to the universe Vs. What the Universe is presenting me with IMMENSLY.
I am sending out the vibrations and in return attracting what my soul has been looking for.
If you don’t believe me try it for yourself.
Write a list of 5 qualities your looking for in a friend, business partner, lover and look at them daily. That’s what you have chosen and that is what you will attract.
Keep a book or diary and inside it write down your gains and gratitude’s no matter how big or small every single day. This will really show you how much good stuff happens in each and every day we have been gifted with. Too often we focus on the negative things that happen and spend our entire time complaining about one thing or another! What a waste of time that could be getting spent seeing all the great stuff and always Remember! The universe is listening.
Set your goals the short term ones and the big ones too and keep them somewhere (or everywhere like me) that you will see them every single day. SHOW THEM TO SOMEONE! Like your partner, mum, best friend, kiddies J and this keeps you accountable! Not just to yourself but to your word!
Above all, this week has taught me that no matter what, we need to remember to give OURSELVES some time. To go somewhere you love, do the things that you love, and just breathe and be grateful for all the little things in our lives. To stop focusing on the not’s and start aiming for the too highs. That my state of mind directly influences the course of action my life takes and that it’s important that when it comes to life, I stay in the drivers seat.
Light and Love and Love and more Love Lee xxx